The beginning of something is the end of others.

So until this challenge is over I wont tell any one I personally know about my tumblr. This helps me keep it as a temporary private journal until then. 

Anyways, the challenge is at my gym Xsports Fitness. It’s a 3month competition where who ever looses the most body fat. Men Vs Men and Women Vs Women. Body fat and weight are too different things. The hardest to loose of course is body fat. But, the intial prices are worth it.

3rd place is $2,000.

2nd is $3,000

and 1st place is $10,000. 

Being now in the stage of college $10,000 can help out a great deal with my situations. Also, to be totally honest I’ve never in my life been more motivated to loose weight. But, something clicked between Nov. and Dec. of 2011 that just gave me focus. notice how I said initial prize because what you gain is so much more greater in value than just money (in my opinion). By compleating and succeding in this challenge I will be the healthiest I’ve been in my life. Therefore I will be happier, healthier and have a lot of information about nutrition health and fitness. The competition starts Feb.1st and it lasts until the end of April. 

As I meditate on the conditioning I’ve been doing since mid December I realize this isn’t the only challenge of change I’m faced with. Mentally and emotionally I’m working on things as well. Mentally, I’m putting in a lot more effort in all aspects of my life while letting go of other negative thoughts that ruled my way of thinking for a long time. I realized that this situation I’m in wont get the best of me and I will have the upper hand in the end. Emotionally, I’m learning to let things go. To face things for what they were and to not give out my affections to someone who doesn’t really want them. I’m learning about myself in a much more deeper way than before. Realizing that from where I stand, I’ve come such a long way. Mistakes, problems and tough times; But there is still much more to come. If I got to where I was I’m sure I can keep on going.

So, this is my challenge. Change. Change coming from within as well as physical. I hope that this will open doors that were never open before and that maybe it can serve as motivation for anyone else out there who wants to face this challenge as well.

Right now, at this moment… i am in the verge of change. This is an introduction to a new and better life. Little by little this will be an accomplishment. It can be something simple or radical. To me, this change is life changing. Because it will alter my perception in life as well as my way; and by that… it will alter how other’s see me. But as I always try to remember… ‘Can’t’ is self-defeating and change is hard work, while the price/motivation can change once it’s achieved it will always be worth reaching your goals.
I hope that who I ever change to be wont forget who I originally was. For right now, I see myself as a selfless person. Love to help others. To give back to people, even when they have given much to me. I have my faults and a rough past with choices that at one point were taken for the wrong reasons, while some actions changed me and my life for ever. I don’t hold money as an important icon in my life, though I understand it is a necessary evil that allows us to do great things. I love my mother and the family I have forged with my true friends. Truth is, when I truly love, I love deep and I find beauty in the smallest things in life. The city of Chicago raised me. Dirty streets and back alleys were my playgrounds. Sky scrapers and bricks was my home and yet, i still maintain a serene heart through the adversities. This is the beginning of something new and the ending of a couple of stories.